First Music video "Hensu Aya Mi"

14 January 2023, LOL. It is finally released today but the time you see this blog, it will already be many days went by. Because I'm too shy to share this blog today itself or let's say I'm not that confident enough to share it right now. Yes I have seen the music video by now, and it would be me lying if I say I have watched it only once. After every couple of minutes, I have rewatched it, not because I'm very excited about it or very happy (I'm not sad about it though, let me make that clear). You know it is just that I do not think that I should be there on the screen on a music video (I do not regret it though), I mean I have a tone of insecurities (saying this out in the public domain feels vulnerable LOL, but you know, someone has to say it out so yeah), so seeing yourself on the screen where everyone is going to judge you and your every little details, it is a little hard. Yes I know we gotta accept of who we are, and how we look, but sometimes the insecurities kicks in and wins the battle. But I'm doing fine, people! I'm all good. Cannot let those insecurities win every damn time, innit? 

Anyways, keeping all those emotional and cringe speeches out, let me tell you all of how I ended up doing a music video. 

I never thought I would be doing music video in life, but ended up doing one LOL. Sometimes Life has its own plan I guess. So I was reached out while I was doing anchoring at Dree nights. But at that time I was not really sure of whether to accept the proposal or not because at that time so many things were happening in my academic life. But after giving a good number of days and time in decision making, ended up accepting the proposal. I said, if it has put its step in my life, then God and life has something planned out for me. Moreover, I was like, bullshits with the insecurities, gotta accept and take a further step. 

People you all have no idea what where going on in that particular stage of my life, where i had no idea of what is gonna happen in future regarding my academic life, the mental breakdowns and everything was on its peak. But now that I think of, every dots can be connected and everything make sense of why and how things happened at their respective time. 

You know 'when life puts you in a very complicated situation or maze, you just gotta accept, do your best and have faith in God'.

 

Through this journey of featuring in a music video, I have learned a lot not only in terms of new experience, but more of how to communicate and present yourself in front of others and what type of vibe or energy you should give out according to the ambiance and scenario. I think through this experience I have grown a little more as a person. Also I met really good people, they were really supportive. But it's a shame that I don't have any group pictures to share. All I have are these few pictures of me and my co actor. 

He also a really genuine and a good guy, cannot thank enough for lending me a hand even before the beginning of the project till the ultimate end of the project, very grateful and thankful. Lastly, to all the people who have been supporting always in what ever I do; you all are the real gems. Thankyou and may the good Lord bless us all. Also, until the next, tatatata tc🌻