Hallucination in the First Blood Donation?

And I thought; is this how you hallucinate after taking drugs?

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People, as mentioned in the title, I happen to do blood donation for the first time in my life; yes I am in my early 20s but never donated my blood to anyone till today. Not like I am scared or anything, it is just that, the time never came. But today, I guess, the time finally came and it happened. 

So, last night, I received a notification that today, a blood donation drive was going to take place in our university, and after seeing that, I was like, I also want to donate blood. And this morning, I got up, went to class, talked with my few mates about donating blood, and then we went to the blood donation camp; but ultimately, I was the only one who donated blood.

Here is the thing, I am kind of a spontaneous person, who agrees to do something when I am hyped up but when the time comes to bring the decision to action, I am like, bro why did I even thought of doing this, or why did I agree to do so. 

Well, I was confident and brave until I was filling up the form, but when one volunteer asked me if it was my first time, and smilingly said, do not worry, everything is going to be okay; but the moment she said, then I started to worry and the nervousness started to build up. I am not very scared of needles, but it is also true that, I am just a little bit scared of needles, so when the moment came to do the blood test, the another person again asked me, if it was first time and again gave me that same poker smile of, ‘everything is going to be okay’; this question and this poker smile continued in every step, but honestly, those words and smile made me more nervous and sacred, it was more of calming the civilians before an earthquake or some kind of storm. Like why do you need to calm someone so much if it was not going to be that scary and dangerous, and honestly, this is what I thought, but I guess, they could see the awkward nervous smile and body language of mine, and therefore they were trying to calm me down.

The result of blood test came out and I was healthy enough to donate blood, and my hemoglobin was 14.8 g/dL, which is higher than the average normal level for women, which is 12g/dL. Well anyways, finally I lied down, and both of my mates were standing nearby me and one of them told me not to see the needle, also I was told beforehand that the needle used for sucking blood are quite thicker than the usual needle, so I turned my head opposite of the doctor. It is kind of awkward to tell but, few tear drops I did shed after the needle pierced through my skin, since it was a little painful. People, I really hate crying in front of people, it is weird and cringe.

Anyway, everything was doing okay until the moment I got up from the bed, put my shoe and stood; actually I could not even get up, my friend helped me in getting up from the bed, my body felt like it was about to shut down, every cell of mine was experiencing kind of vibrating sensation; kind of zing zing sensation, I do not know of how to explain that feeling though. Beside me, one of my classmate was also giving blood, and she stood up and was perfectly fine, so I thought I also do not need to take rest and will be fine, but off course, it was a total opposite in my case, I could not even think properly, all I could feel was zing zing and was trying my best to come in sense and act normal, which I could not. So I sat down on the chair, leaned my head on my friend’s shoulder, was feeling dizzy, wanted to puke, but also was feeling hungry, so I asked for juice, but I could not even hold the juice with my hand, so my friend hold it for me and all I could do was put my whole energy in sipping the juice, which was also difficult to do so. Also I could see that everyone was watching me; being there like a baby, who could not even sit properly, leaning head on my friend’s shoulder, sipping juice while my friend is holding it for me; my goodness I felt really awkward and shy, kind of annoyed with my own body and situation.

 Since I was not getting any better, they told me to lie down on the bed and take rest for few minutes, and it is here, when I was watching the ceiling and trying to understand what is happening with my body, so many emotions running in my mind all together; feeling happy, proud of myself, damn hungry, shy, awkward, also annoyed with my weak body, for a moment, I thought I was hallucinating, not even kidding, and also, my body was sweating like anything, even though the weather was literally so chill today. Saying that, I am so glad that my both friend was with me; one who was continuously wiping my tears and sweat, and the other, who always checked and made sure I was doing okay. Fun fact, last night I thought, I will go by myself and give blood, but jokes on me, who could not even, stood properly by herself after donating blood. Therefore, people, do not go solo to donate blood, especially if it is your first time.

Overall, the experience was, um….. people, I am not able to find a word which describes this experience properly. Wait, I think I got the word, the experience was like a roller coaster, where you hype yourself to ride it, but the moment you get on the ride, you start to rethink your decision, and when the ride starts going higher, you feel more nervous, and then you are at the top, where you cannot turn back and accept the fact that you have to complete the ride and then boom! You ride down while going through a mix emotion and then, ultimately, you reach the end of the ride and then, just feel proud of yourself that you have finally done that.