Welcome to My Brain

Well umm.... I don't know what I'm about to write or how this particular blog will end up, because I don't know what I'm writing or a definite topic on which I want to write or talk about. Just now I watched an interview of two amazing music artists interviewing and sharing their minds with each other. And the last message in that video was simply ' don't say never to anything, don't stop, keep moving and try different stuff and see were you will end up, because that is interesting.

Actually I don't even think anyone was or is interested in reading my blogs, but I'm writing blogs to just let some of my works or thoughts to be out there in the public domain or u know, just out there. I'm just trying to map my footprints and see how my life picture would look like in the future where I would be just sitting in a chair or may be in a field looking at the picture or map of life; pondering about my life journey. Because when you are old; our physical body is not that strong anymore to do according to our wish, and you are just there sitting in a corner and helplessly just pondering about your life and all the things which you have done in the past when you were young. 

 I just talked with my mother last evening on the phone and she was telling me about my grandma and how my mother is trying to keep my grandma occupied with weaving; so as to keep her mind away from the negative and sorrowful thoughts just by pondering about all the negative incidents or things that happened in the past or about the possibilities. We all know very well of what happens when we start to Overthink. 

Well, now that I think back about the conversation with my mom and also after watching that video, a thought passed through my mind; what kind of memories I want to relive in my 60s or 70s where I will be left with nothing but just to wander in my thoughts and ponder about the past. 

The thing is I don't even know what I'm doing right now, I don't know whether I'm doing myself right or wrong with the present track on which I'm riding upon. I can't figure out or vividly see the Tunia in the next 4 or 5 years. I don't even know whether I'm justifying the enthusiasm and dreams of the teen Tunia, Or the aspired future Tunia or not. 

But again, if life becomes that predictable and went according to our will, then there is no reason to live, everything will become lame and there's no point of living I guess. 

'We just gotta role the dice and see which number comes out and where it leads'. It's a process I guess.

See I'm not a philosopher or any intellectual brainy person, I'm just a normal human being; on her early adulthood, not knowing what she is doing and how her next couple of years will go. 

I'm not asking anyone to agree with whatever I says in my blogs, I'm just writing and uttering out my thoughts because Bro! I have the right to Freedom of Speech and Expression (Article 19 of the Indian Constitution), just kidding, I'm just writing and expressing my current thoughts out because I just wanted to. Sometimes we gotta just let our thoughts flow and put it out there; who knows someone may find it relevant and feel less lonely. 

Now I kind of feel not totally covered after putting out some of my thoughts LOL. So here's an amazing art I received (out of the blue, I know, LOL), just didn't wanted to put out a blog without a picture in it LOL. 

I hope you all are doing good, it's already been one month counting today since my last blog. So, if you are reading this then you a real bonafide kind person, no need of bonafide certificate for that, Just Kidding, LOL. Kindly leave a comment if you read my blogs, LOL. 

Not me, being this bold to say that LOL. Enough of LOL, LOL. 😂